I could not have asked for a more perfect response to the voice workshop than the inspired piece of writing one of my students shared with me this week. This has been a very touching process. I am learning from my students just as much as they are from me.
"I want to sing more. I want to sing. Not the lyrical sweet birds cooing pretty songs kind of singing that wakes lovers just as the sunrays peek over the hill kind of singing; or the belt it out, wailing wild like the wind, through desolate tumbleweed landscape, lost her man gritty bellowing heartbreak kind of singing; but the releasing sound consciously from a place deep within, way down from the core of Mama Earth through the root, fill the belly, breath, open the throat, don't really give a damn how it sounds kind of singing. The throw down & throw in & let out the first words that come to mind come out your body so you find out, with certainty, what's in there kind of singing. No, I want to do that reach down reach out & surprise yourself like you've just been reborn kind of singing; the you'd-never-believe-who-I-authentically-am kind of singing; the letting go of old stories that you tell yourself about yourself kind of singing that knocks your own self over kind of singing. The warbling I gotta cry because you'll never hurt me anymore kind of singing; the groaning your NO & learning to ring out your YES! kind of singing. That's the kind of singing I wanna do. That's why I want to sing."
Today is February 5th. I am writing this just a few hours before the show at the Utah. So much has been happening in the past few weeks, it's hard to track it all. But I do want to share. Because I want to remember and to remind that this project, this lifestyle, this creative process takes lots of WORK and determination. It takes a lot of forethought. I am also going to work with Jordan in the studio this afternoon so I don't have much time but I will jot down some points:
The process in the studio is tedious, long hours and small little details to think about. It is the most fun tedious thing there is to do. It's like painting an audio picture. So many possible textures, lines, colors and shades to add.
I have met Starita at Bay Area Music Collective and feel SO happy to have the opportunity to work with this organization that is pretty much exactly what I was looking for. I went in for a meeting yesterday and before I had paid them a penny, he had a long spreadsheet of more than 30 blogs and contacts for media promo and even possible gigging opportunities. Ah, the usefulness of college interns at it's best! Talking with him and planning the marketing aspect of the album is making the timeline really clear. Working backwards from the release date and when we need to start bugging people to publish a story.
All the while I am also thinking about booking and traveling to Israel to visit my dad. I played for him this morning over Skype. He seems to be able to hear me but can't get any kind of message across except for a simple yes or no and sometimes he even says, "nice!" He was trying to play along on the harmonica a bit. It's not much of anything but at least he can hold it in his hand and blow air into it.
I feel a strong sense of living out my purpose at this time in my life. Every day is centered around that and it is so rewarding, even if overwhelming. I am teaching some beautiful voice workshops and discovering my gifts each day anew. I will share more about that soon. Feels like I'm stepping into a world of wonder that was waiting for me all my life.
My life is my art and my music. My body is my vehicle. The deeper the sensing, the deeper the meaning.