I was looking back at my posts from this past year. I'm not sure who, if anyone read any of them. But the thing that struck me most was that I was trying. I was trying to write something perfect. And it felt dry. It felt too composed and thought out. And I left out ALL the details.
Well no more of that. I am here to expose myself full now. To announce my presence as an artist and human being walking on this here planet. Imperfections and all. So first of all, my experience of this planet right now is that it is absolutely mysterious and magical. I have been studying the art of making things happen - or as we call it here in the Bay Area "manifesting". I somehow found the courage and strength to launch this crowd funding campaign.
Because I have been looking around me for some time now at my friends and the people I respect most on this earth and I have thought to myself, "if they can do it, so can i."
It's been a mystery how each of my friends who are artists and yoga teachers make ends meet in this expensive culture. But I finally stopped worrying about it. I decided to quit my job and sublet my apartment for 4 months. I realized that the only way to be able to be fully engaged in doing what I love - is by engaging full time in doing what I love. And telling everyone I know that I am not compromising anymore. And all the people I most respect in the world have given me their full support. So now day by day I am living by trial and error.
Friends and family take me in with grace and ease. Sometimes I get to stay a week, sometimes a night. But I have never felt more loved, and held by my community. It's kind of like being a nun or something. Like a musical devotee that relies on the community for sustanence and support. And in turn, I am called upon to inspire, awaken, love and sing.
I wake up in the morning and ask myself, what will be most fulfilling to me in this moment. I am fed by my relationships with family and friends. So I make phone calls, write emails, brainstorm ways of connecting my music with more people. I am writing this blog to connect. Not to isolate. I practice singing, meditating and playing guitar in order to connect. Because I'm in love with life.
I am driven to create a sustainable community with people who are resonating with me. Artists, healers, lovers, musicians, fearless hearts that want to be a part of the new paradigm of living. Yes, we are sustained by music, by air, by love. Everything else falls into place. Thank you for your support of my unfolding. I am ever grateful.
Set my next album "Wild Heart" free by contributing and spreading the word about my campaign at www.yonat.com
My life is my art and my music. My body is my vehicle. The deeper the sensing, the deeper the meaning.